There comes a time in your life when you accept who you are, and you wont compromise your integrity for acceptance.You will have friends who know what true friendship is and model that for you. They also will teach you how you are to be as a true friend.
Trial and error will be the way you learn things. These will be hard lessons for you because you are a v-e-r-y slow learner. But you will tire of that, and change your ways eventually. You will learn late in life that you have ADD. This is partly the reason you’ve had some of your “character” flaws. But NOT all. Your reliance on the One who created you will remain the most valuable asset in your life and the only Way, Truth and Light to help you on your path.
Depending on what time I am writing this to my teenage me, you probably wont believe you will have children if it’s after 15 but before 17. That short time of being told you were infertile was an eternity! (You never know the length of a season) God knew that if we would not have been told we weren’t able to bare children ‘oldest daughter’ wouldn’t be here like her two other siblings after her. Yes, you have two abortions and you go on to ask for forgiveness of that guilt, and give your life to Christ.
You marry a guy from Michigan!?! Who grew up from a teen in Laurel. He’s everything you needed yet nothing like you knew you were getting. He like you is a work in progress. He’s the protector you always wanted. Sometimes a little over. (love ya honey)
You have 7 kids in all. You broke your “I’ll never be a step-mom rule”. You not only broke it YOU ROCK AT IT! You love your son from another mother! You are still not sure what your “5 year plan” is, and
no longer owna “piece of land” and you’re 3 years from 40! (no pressure).
I will leave you with this, you’re favorite words are Love, Faith, Truth and Hope! I know that you do this but I will say it again… “Hang in there, life get’s better and makes you stronger“.
Dear Teenage “Self”
June 13, 2012 by 13 Comments