There comes a time in your life when you accept who you are, and you wont compromise your integrity for acceptance.You will have friends who know what true friendship is and model that for you. They also will teach you how you are to be as a true friend.
Trial and error will be the way you learn things. These will be hard lessons for you because you are a v-e-r-y slow learner. But you will tire of that, and change your ways eventually. You will learn late in life that you have ADD. This is partly the reason you’ve had some of your “character” flaws. But NOT all. Your reliance on the One who created you will remain the most valuable asset in your life and the only Way, Truth and Light to help you on your path.
Depending on what time I am writing this to my teenage me, you probably wont believe you will have children if it’s after 15 but before 17. That short time of being told you were infertile was an eternity! (You never know the length of a season) God knew that if we would not have been told we weren’t able to bare children ‘oldest daughter’ wouldn’t be here like her two other siblings after her. Yes, you have two abortions and you go on to ask for forgiveness of that guilt, and give your life to Christ.
You marry a guy from Michigan!?! Who grew up from a teen in Laurel. He’s everything you needed yet nothing like you knew you were getting. He like you is a work in progress. He’s the protector you always wanted. Sometimes a little over. (love ya honey)
You have 7 kids in all. You broke your “I’ll never be a step-mom rule”. You not only broke it YOU ROCK AT IT! You love your son from another mother! You are still not sure what your “5 year plan” is, and
no longer owna “piece of land” and you’re3 years from 40! (no pressure).I will leave you with this, you’re favorite words are Love, Faith, Truth and Hope! I know that you do this but I will say it again… “Hang in there, life get’s better and makes you stronger“.
What a thoughtful reminder of what was, and what you didn’t know could be.
I have often wished I could go back and relive some of those teenage years knowing what I know now. How different things would have been!
Thanks ladies it was cleansing to write.
This is a great idea. Who knew we would be in the place we are today! If I would write me a letter to my teenage self, I would say don’t worry, it will turn out more than the way you want it to be minus all the gazillion bucks you dreamed of. ;D
Visiting from vB!
Roxi
http://www.MommyRoxi.com
I still don’t know what my four year plan is but the future definitely looked clearer when I turned 40. I know you have a few years, but it something to look forward to.
I can’t believe that you were told you were infertile and then had a whole bunch of amazing miracles
Also your “character flaws” are what make you who you are! Embrace them, learn from them and how to deal with them and then be your best self – which it sounds
like you are mastering!
I enjoyed your honesty.
Leigh
http://www.oneandoneequalstwinfun.com
Made me realize that most of my plans when I was a teenager never really did materialize.
7 kids!! I’m sure your teenage self didn’t expect that. I don’t think I did anything I thought I would as a teenager. For one thing, I wanted to be a veterinarian and sadly, that didn’t happen, but I guess God knew there would be no way I could ever put an animal down. I’m now studying to be a special ed teacher
Stopping by from VoiceBoks!
Isn’t funny how we think we know how the world will turn out! LOL In actuality though, I am more than I ever thought I would be. I don’t know if that is sad or good. LOL
I as an adult wanted to be a nurse! After the 7 kids pee, poo and vomit I changed my mind. I should get the same salary and degree just for getting all of them through toddler stages.
Thanks Leigh!
I appreciate your words of encouragement!
@Kenya~I hope it gets clearer! I loved the 25yo epiphany I had! That brought my mind full circle, so I thought! LOL
@Roxi ~OH! I didn’t even get started on money and the fact that “in the red” is the new black on ‘our’ budget every month! I will continue to write to the teenage me, and let her know what I want all teens to know. Thanks for stopping by.